i dont know what to do. my head says no. my heart says yes. what a classic cliche. sickening really. it's like im stuck in this pathetic helpless little bubble between yes and no. unfortunatly i cant have it both ways. it's a black and white situation. ugh. males.

people are funny. its like they are in their own little world. what if everything you thought you did so secretly and subltly was actually not that subtle at all. people notice more than you think. we are observant creatures. on the other hand, some of us are so oblivious that we dont even realize that we almost got hit by that car.

so i was just looking through my old posts and i was definitly drunk in my last post casue i dont remember putting it there. but i kind of do remember it. i think i was at simeon's dorm. OH and i met tyrone from the uwm basketball team. take that biotches!!




oh,and by the way, ITS NOT MY FAULT YOU'RE LIKE, IN LOVE WITH ME OR SOMETHING!



gotta love mean girls. ♥

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im updatind fuck this shit g funk. haha

i am not fond of greasy stalkers.


but i am fond of free pens!

i have been thinking alot about how much i really want a kitten.

and how i dont know if i should sell my car. car insurance is way too effing much and i cant afford it so i am contemplating letting it sit at my aunt's until i can work up enough money to use it again

OR

i can sell it and have alot of money and walk a few blocks to the bus. yes i like that idea much much better.

I'm not quite in love yet but i'm getting there.









AND beware the ides of march!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think its highly unusual how people fall in love in movies so quickly. do you think that ever happens in real life? i know the answer, just wondering if you do.

does anyone else realize that when it gets colder, people don't smile as much?

like it is too much work when you are walking outside to scrunch up the sides of your lips and squint your eyes a little bit.

i have decided that i am never going to become a nun. no matter what i do in life, where i go, i will not ever in my existance in this life time, become a nun.



and i would like to have a conversation with an unborn fetus to see if it would really have liked to be born to a family who obviously didnt want it, or if it would have rather gone onto its next life where it has a chance to be happy.

that is all.

i need a good jones soda.
i need to drive around with sar in abbotsfort listening to the used at full blast.
i need to eat fast food with nishi in a random parking lot.
i need to kiss with passion again.
i need to mean it when i scream.
i need to have a normal conversation with brenton while standing 20 feet away from him.







i need a hug from you.

how totally lame. my football trading cards arent worth any money. i guess being a dorky little kid with no friends who collects football cards really didnt pay off...

my ancient egyptian class was cancelled much to my dismay. and choir doesnt start until next week. so i didnt have class today and i wont have it friday either. it's a bummer actually, i am in love with my classes. accept math of course. does anyone have any money they want to give me for gas?!?

mountain dew gives me a headache. today was my first day of college at the big uwm. it was boring accept for when things went wrong like i got on the wrong bus hah. but good thing i know people who can give me rides and walk me to my car so i don't get mugged by the frat boys!




overall i would say that the day was a 7.9 out of 10

so i guess this is it. i start college tomorrow. so many big changes. being here sometimes makes me want to cry but i'd rather be here than where i was before. i miss nishi. i miss sar. oddly enough, i miss andy. i miss brenton.






i'm afraid of public transportation in milwaukee.

orientation was lame accept for jeremy, my advisor who is gay and did a cartwheel outside cause i told him to. how come gay guys are always sooo hot? it isnt fair but its practically a pre-requisite . whatever. i need to find out where my chior class is going to be. that might me helpfull.





dont you hate it when you break up with someone, have a horrid time getting over them, but then when you finally do, they suddenly decide to drop back into your life? like seriously, what the fuck?

i live in milwaukee now . officially. i miss a few special people but for the most part i am getting along just fine now that i have caitlin. her friends are way cool and im so happy i found jesse. i mean really, what a riot that boy is. last night he just randomly took his shirt off and jumped into the pool at the party. and then we watched zoolander. again. and laughed histerically. again. he just cracks me up. and he is totally amazing. i can tell this is going to blossom into a beautiful relationship. awe.







nighty night rabbit.

i officialy live in milwaukee now! and i love it. people swerve in front of me and drive like maniacs and i get to yell and scream at them and not feel like a bitch! i totally belong in a big city. and considering this is the biggest city wisconsin has to offer, i'm not doing too bad. but i miss nishi and dan. i missed nishi before though.


but i have my cousin caitlin and i love her and she's soooooo hilarious and we are having so much fun. yay for caitlin!

To be honest, I never liked you anyway.










...At least, that's what I'm telling myself for the sake of forgetting all about you.

i love my pink heart rainboots. but i need to move my car cause they are doing some tar things to the driveway. i talked to my dad today. it was okay. i always feel so fake when i talk to him. maybe cause i fake laugh alot. what an enigma.



elise, my number is 848 1333 or 432 8443 call me before the 17th so we can go to nishi's and get your lovely car its present!


and sar, effing call me i love you and need to see you SOON. I LOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU.